Hi Leah
I too am terrified of the dentist....what I do is take my mp3 player to listen to...drowns out the drill. I also wave my hand and the dentist knows to stop immediately...she also numbs me for everything!! I know it's hard but I just imagine false teeth and that helps me to grin and bare it!...my mum and dad had false teeth for as long as I can remember! My mum lost hers due to being pregnant and my dad because he's a diabetic!
Anyway try to go and get it over with....I know it's hard to visualise...but you made it through the pain of two births....no man can do that, yet they all go to the dentist!
Hello everyone else...hope you're all ok? Lox's neck is so much better now, bless him! The Christening went well, but I need to get my act together and get you all some photo's sent! We've all had colds and coughs at the moment and I've been getting used to being at home all day with the kids on my own again! To tell you the truth I am getting more done and it is easier without Julian here....I know that sounds harsh, but he was a bit like another child....and it made me lazy as neither of us would end up doing the daily routine in fear that one was doing more than the other!! LOL!!
Lox weighs 22lb!! That's only 2lb less than Hermione...yet they're 18 months apart! He's already in size 4 nappies and they seem to be getting tight! He seems to love his walker, so hopefully that'll burn some weight off....but he is not at all fat! I hope Pampers will do a size 7...think they only go up to 6! LOL!
Anyway, are we any closer to a meet up? If it's a weekend we might make it into a mini-break and stay over. Think we need to delegate somebody to pick a place and start arranging it for real! (please not me as I have lots on at the moment!)
Oh....I also can't remember if I said thanks to everyone for the support you gave me during my melt-down a couple of weeks ago? I thought it was so sweet to hear everyone's concern....even people who don't normally post gave me encouragemnet! I am feeling a lot better! Think it was a mixture of everything! Julian and his job thing, I had a mother of all periods....I haven't had one since Feb 2003!...(Except post-pregnancy bleeding)....and I was also grieving not having anymore kids. I know in my heart that once I finished BF and started on the full pill that my chances of 'accidentaly' getting pregnant were over...so now I have to make an actual choice if I have more...and I think with our unstable situation that decision will be no! Then a couple of years will pass and I won't want to start all over again, and that'll be it! Shame really! Wish I could just have 2 more now...but without the time of the pregnancy! I feel like I have wasted some of the time I should've spent with Hermione in order to have Lox....but I see that as worth it, because she was younger. It's now she needs me most and if I got pregnant again I wouldn't be able to do all the things I want to do with her. Then before I know where I am she'll be starting school and we won't be able to do things during the week!
I know she won't remember being 2 in a few years time...but it's more than that. Thank God I have had two healthy babies...whose to say the next one would be? That could turn all our future plans inside-out! I could have complications etc. Then there is the more fickle things like the kids have their own bedrooms now and I can hardly get all of their stuff in to them now....never mind finding room for another persons life!
I know we'd cope if we had to...I'm one of 8 and can't ever remember there being less than 4 of us girls in one room!
Oh...just going to miss that positive result on the test stick. Going to miss the scan....the preparation....the kicking.....and the excitement of the labour! Just feel that a major chapter of my life has ended....I know I could get it back, but I don't know if that would be for the best...I kinda don't want to spoil what I already have...but I don't want to regret it either. I think Hermione would love a sister...I did! But I know I can't guarantee a girl...but there again I bet Lox would love a brother! It would be cheap to have another too as we already have all of the things!
Gosh I am babbling now!
Anyway take care all of you...can't wait to meet up!!! I'll try and send photo's tonight!
Love Sarah xxx