Hi GUYS esp lorrainne who was so friendly last time xx My computer has been away to be fixed and so i am just catching up. Couldnt agree more with you everhopeful ( like the name !)it does seem to be families, i have had the cr****t christmas due to others , the best day was actually xmas day when DH had norovirus so everyone left us alone ,lucky me and babe didnt get it and he looked after himself pretty much, but as soon as well it all started again , i dont feel i have had any suport from either family and as my friend said im a prime candidate for PND after all thats been happening , i.e parents fell out with me cos i wouldnt let them take babe cos i was breast feeding, i have had to mix feed so breast each time before bottle every two hours, each feed was last an hour plus and early days two hourly, when i said best help i could have would be help with cleaning etc they said that i had to learn to do that at same time as baby care , this was with a caesarian which until 10 weeks was still open and being dressed , lucky no infection . Now i could just cry and cry i feel so down , when i read about that poor mum who left twins without her i couldnt stop crying, i love my baby and dont think i could do anything but i have felt like running away, nothing i do seems good enough for others , e.g i travvelled two hours to see partners family for a meal , the restaurant couldnt fit pram in so my poor 12 week old babe who was desperately trying to sleep howled through meal when f in law said , "is she always like this" and carried on eating nobody except my partner offered to help and then "m in law said that she hadnt enjoyed dinner cos of crying , i didnt even eat dinner as i took her out in wind and rain for a walk and ended sitting in car. Now iv just heard that my sister has had a second misscarriage which she is obviously v, upset about , im told to keep away and that i should be on top of world. Does anyone understand my feelings or am i really getting it soooo wrong . I am making appointment with HV this week bcos i feel like im going off my rocker , believe me im usually so capable and can stand up for myself but i just done have energy and am so dissappointed in others behaviour.
Thankyou anyone who reads this xxxxx
Posts: 194 | Location: United Kingdom | Registered: 11 June 2005
OMG Teri you poor love you sound as misrable as sin! Sorry to hear that things are so bad at the moment. I know how you feel, life can be sh*t at times ad feels like the world is crashing around you. I had PND with all 3 of mine, but the third one I have managed to cope better and now try to help others where I can. I am a good listener! It does sound like that is what yo have, and no you are not mad or insane, so please don't worry, cos if you are then so am I haha. The best thing to do is see the GP and have a chat they are very good and can help. When I saw mine I walked in, he said and how are you and I just burst into tears, poor guy could not get a word out of me! I am here if you ever need to chat babe. x As to the lady who left the twins and died on the M3 That was a bit close to home, that is near me and I think but can't be sure but think that her hubby is my old mates brother! I would have helped her if I had known her if you know what I mean. I hope that you have a better time very soon. I am alwyas about in between work, my kids etc. Leave me a message and I will get back to you (I sound like an answer machine now haha)
Right I better go, I got soaked taking my kids to school and getting my neighbour a paper (she is old) and gettig a few bits of shopping! I have changed but need to dry my hair again lol.
Keep smiling (and the world will wonder what you been up to lol) Love Lorraine xx
Posts: 3163 | Location: United Kingdom | Registered: 13 July 2005
OK I need to moan, I feel really down I know I try to cheer you all up but today I feel bloody misrable myself! Its wet again and I got soaked taking the kids to school including the fact some stupid woman went through a puddle in her car and soaked us all!!!!!!! My hubby and I are not getting on at all, things are so bad at the mo I feel so down, he has work issues and we are having an extension built but it is very slow and keeps coming to a stand still!!! Its been going on for a while now and things between hubby and me are really not too good at the mo. Today my IBS is really bad and my tummy hurts I feel like crying. I have to go and get Chloe from school at lunch time, adam later on, I have my little Kieran here wanting me to play, what I want to do is curl up with them all and go to sleep. As money seems an issue I have carried on doing my avon and also now working from home for a local firm and I am still doing my ebay shop and making things too. I am shattered!!!
The weather is so awful not sure that the kids shold be at school??? The winds are strong, and its very wet too, I would be happier if I knew they were safe at home with me!
I think I better go, making myself feel worse!
Posts: 3163 | Location: United Kingdom | Registered: 13 July 2005
Oh Hun. I am sooo sorry your feeling low today. You have got a lot on at the mo and it's understandable that everything gets on top of you. I can totally relate to just wanting to curl up and sleep too.
I'm off out for some of the day now so have to go but i will try and give you a call later for a natter.
Hugs and just remember we all love you hun and appreciate how much your there for us. It's now our turn to repay that and be there for you.
sorry u not feelin good lorraine, the weather certainly doesnt help does it , im fed up of getting wet too !
We all have days dont we but sometimes its like one thing after another, I have health visitor coming today and im going to ask about counselling bcos im in tears most of the time , while trying to smile, my girl will think that a happy face is a smile with tears ! so i want to work it out so she doesnt suffer
I hope the sun comes out soon (unlikely) and we all feel better soon (i live with hope !)
Posts: 194 | Location: United Kingdom | Registered: 11 June 2005
How are you feeling now? I am doing a lot better after the usual what did we do? could we have stopped it? The story is that we can start trying for a baby as soon as we want to but last week I was still feeling weak and the blood results came back two days after I had them done and It shows I am very anemic so doc says iron tablets three times a day for TWO MONTHS and no trying for a baby till then. God that seems endless, then to top it all, Playing with Bria on Sunday night and she poked me right in the eye, oh it was sore, so bad yesterday I had to get someone to drive me to the nearest A & E open (what a joke) 25 minutes away who put the dye in, had a dig about, owwwww and then told me a bad abrasion, cut and gave me antibiotic eye gel to put in four times a day for five days. yuk. They say bad luck happens in threes so hopefully husband then poking me in affending eye last night will count. I bloody hope so. I'm never ill, never in hopsital (or the kids and hubby) and all of a sudden, bang, in for emergency scans, surgery and then my eye. Touch wood thats it. I suppose I should be thankful they didn't give me an eye patch. aarrgg jim lad.
Hi Girls, well things are still pretty bad here, today I feel so on edge and its cos we are taking the kids to my mums and then going to London with Chris's work to see Cinderella at the Old Vic. Now I used to love going out but I just can't face it and I don't want to leave my kids. Kieran my youngest is clingy and I am gonna really miss him. Also my eldest was awake till very late and in tears as he does not want us to go and then he was up eary too. My daughter said that she does not want to go to nannies so its gonna be a bad day I feel. My head is pounding and I have taken some pain killers and hope to god that it goes before we leave. Why is it when u r down things happen??? tell me! Someone trying to cause me problems on ebay! Cheeky cow! Oh and my poor Nan (90) has been hurt by the careers! A chunk out her arm! A big chunk we had to call someome out to dress and clean the wound! My Nan is now really tired all the time and seems like she wants to just go, had enough, its so hard, I love her so much, she can't give up, not ready to let her go! I am now in tears again! I need to get cheery, or I am never going to make it through the day. xx
Posts: 3163 | Location: United Kingdom | Registered: 13 July 2005
to all the mums out there im new to this site but would love to chat as i get very lonely at mo and also feel bit under weather my husband is once again waitin to have another liver op and then 5 weeks after that he has his lung op its been a tough couple years i would say but at mo i seemed to want to burst i have a 2half and 5 year girls and a 15 year old boy im always up 4 a chat
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