Hi girls.
Hope everyone is well.
I just can't even think about xmas at the moment with all this going on just a few days to go and i will know what is going on.
The nurse said that if all is well at my 10 week scan there is a very good chance that the bleeding is not affecting the baby.
The bleed i had the other day was exactly the same as what i had at 5 weeks so hopefully bean is still ok.
I wish that all this wasn't right over xmas not that it would be just as shit anytime of the year.
Just everyone is so happy at the moment and it's hard to hide why i am so down and people keep saying why aren't i in the xmas mood as much a usual but i am not telling anyone.
If all goes well next week i will probably tell a couple more people as it is obvious that something is going on.
Anyway enough about me i will be none the wiser until next friday so i will just have to keep my chin up!
Angel- So glad that your scan went well it is amazing seeing that heartbeat and you are over the scariest part now too.

Kate- Your right about there being alot of reasons for bleeding and the fact that they could see it could happen is good.
Also that i have had bleeding and the baby is fine is a good sign but this is all so raw still from miscarrying in april that i can't help but be terrified that it is happening again.
But i think once you bleed there is really no way to tell what will happen i think it is 50/50 some go on to have healthy baby and some miscarry.
All i can do is be realistic but try and stay positive because all this worry is not doing me any good.
Pobs- Good to see you on here. Roll on to your 12 week scan!

Kirsti- I am so sorry about the twin but you have got to stay strong for the other little one now.
What will the hospital do now?
Wendy- Congratulations hope you are well.

ualreadyknow- So pleased that you have seen the baby.

The other thing is i am starting to worry about symtoms.
My boobs are still massive but are not as sore as they were before.
I don't feel sick everyday like before either but haven't eaten my tea for the last 3 days all i fancy is toast or cereal.
Sickness is more in waves rather than every morning and evening like before.
The consistant thing is that my tummy is hard and has been all the way through.
But the last few days has become slightly rounded just so i can't get my skinny jeans on cause they dig in.
And my work trousers leave a button mark on my tummy from being tight and i have lost weight if anything not gained it.
I'm starting not to feel like shit all the time and i suppose i'm getting scared that it is a bad thing but could it be that it's just easing off?
Lots of love to everyone.
Amy.xx
Me- 28
DH-26
Ciaran Jacob was born Thursday 10th July at 10.38am.
Weighing 7lb2oz.