I have been bombarding the 2ww board with posts of my ups and downs on my ttc mission, so thought I should start my own diary type thread to vent my happiness/anger/sadness/ and any other emotions that come into play during this difficult exercise.
I thought it would help me and hopefully help others if I kept a log of the month. Please feel free to join in, it's not a diary just for me, I just didn't want to keep taking over the 2ww when i'm on a 4ww
For those who don't know me, my name is Kate I am 30, married to dh (31) and we have a son who is 30 months old.
I work from home, but after an amazing holiday a few weeks ago I have decided to take the plunge and become a full time Mum. My job is very stressful and I feel it has been hindering our ttc mission. I haven't quit my job yet as I am a big scaredy pants! but the idea is there.
DH and I have been ttc #2 since January 07. I don't chart or use opk's although I am going to start if I don't get anywhere soon. I am quite scared of charting as I don't want to get myself too obsessed with the details of ttc. I am the sort of person that would go over the top and I don't know if I could stand the feeling of failure if I charted every day, used opk's and did everything by the book only to get another bfn. I suppose by not doing these things I'm giving myself more options further down the line...does that make sense or am I waffling?
When DH and I conceived #1 it was annoyingly simple. We went away to a wedding and stayed in a hotel. We did it once (all month...it was a busy month ) and 15 days later I got my bfp! To add insult to injury, a week before getting my bfp I went out on a works night out and shared 6 bottles of wine with my 2 colleagues, 3 bacardi breezers and a pint of cider (yuk!) followed by a motorway service station greasy fry-up! I had no idea I was pg, I just didn't think it was a possibility. The following day my hangover seemed to last all day, and all night and was still there when I woke up the next day. That's when I started to think that maybe I was pg! I went on to have a super healthy pregnancy, and ds was born 2 weeks late at 9lb 8oz. A whopper!
Anyway, here we are into my 11th cycle of ttc #2. I really thought it would happen straight away, but a few of the girls on the 2ww seem to experience difficulty ttc#2 and someone mentioned secondary infertility. I have googled this and I think it's quite a common problem.
This month I am taking the bull by the horns and have given my diet a makeover. I am eating super healthy and adopting a healthier lifestyle.
It is cd4 today, my cycles are 31 days. The aim is to bd every other day from cd10 to cd26!! Better to be safe than sorry
I really hope this is the month, not sure how much more I can take.
Well, af is taking the hint and getting ready to leave I am hoping that will be the back of her for the next 9 months!
Every month as af finished I pack all my 'things' away in the hope that it will stop af from arriving the next month ( I know it's stupid) so this month to try a different method I have left my 'things' out.... daring eh?
My healthy eating has taken an early set back, my will power is pathetic. Last night I had Chicken Fu Yung and Fried Rice (and a handful of chips ) and now I am eating a peanut butter sandwich for my lunch. I know peanut butter is actually good for you once you get over the high fat content and sugar!!!
Oh well, all good diets start on a Monday ( ) so that's my plan.
I can't believe I am on cd5 already. I am just counting down to bd time. I feel quite sorry for dh as he no longer asks if i'm 'in the mood' just whether i'm fertile! Mind you I don't hear him complaining!!
I always find Sunday's so drab, dh is working today so it's a quiet day for me and ds.
Anyway, it's a quick one today as I have no news. I am looking forward to being able to post on this thread during the bd marathon (not during , if you know what I mean!!!) and through the 2ww. It's kind of like keeping a diary, I get to write down all the little thoughts that pass through my head. I think it might be quite therapeutic. A couple of months ago I had so much whizzing around my head that I started having really disturbing and violent dreams. So hopefully expressing myself on here will help my head ..... OMG I sound like a nut case!
I can't believe how fast this cycle is going already. I am on cd6 today which means the bd marathon begins in just 4 days!
I am going to start drinking Green Tea as I heard it can help with producing quality ewcm! We will see.
I am such a wuss, I still haven't properly started my healthy lifestyle kick. I am armed with everything I need, but got up this morning and had some Toast. Not bad, and I didn't have marg or butter just a spread of Lemon Curd (mmmmm) but for lunch I'm having more bread (peanut butter sandwiches, yes I am 30, yes my tastes are immature ) Maybe I can redeem myself my having something better for tea tonight?
DH is working all sorts of funny shifts at the moment so I hope it won't interfere with our bd mission this month. He has recently been promoted and hasn't finished work on time once!
Last night I sat analysing myself while I was sat in bed. My boobs are covered in hundreds of tiny pin-pricks, I assumed they were hair follicles??? On closer inspection there were short (less than 1mm) sharp dark hairs in some of them OMG, am I turning into a man? Am I a freak? I can't tell any of my friends or dh as I don't want them to know....help!
Well, America's next top model is on tonight. Followed by Pete Burns' PA...I love these programmes!!!
Winter is finally approaching! I love Winter...dark mornings, dark nights, wrapping up warm in big coats and wooly scarves!! And of course CHRISTMAS!!! It's 9 weeks today OMG!
I am on cd7 today, bd time is getting closer. DH rolled over with a twinkle in his eye last night and asked me if I was tired. I said I wasn't tired, but I was only on cd6. Thinking about this now, with a strong coffee inside me it's horrible. How can I let ttc dictate of lives? Just because it's not the 'right' day shouldn't mean we can't do it. I feel so sorry for DH (and other DH's out there), I know we have a lot to go through, but sometimes I think they have a rough time of it too.
Anyway, still not moved my bum into starting my new healthy eating habit What is wrong with me? I am popping out later and I am walking, it will be a 3 mile walk in total so i'm gonna do it On my way home I am going via town and getting some extra bits for my new diet which starts tomorrow, no excuses!
Decided to have an hour in front of the TV this morning, something I never get to do in the day and put Home & Health on for a bit of baby tv, but there was no baby progs on? When I was having ds (3 years ago) there was always baby programmes on Discovery: Student Midwives, Portland Hospital, Here to Maternity, Baby Whisperer, Baby Room (that was cool!!)...where are they all?
Did anyone see Pete Burns' PA last night? There's a contestant on there called Shelley, well last week I bought Look magazine and she was in there for some story or another, then last night I watched Katie & Peter Unleashed (very funny!)and she was on there!!!
I have just been reading some sites that offer nutritional advice to women trying to conceive. I found the snippet below and thought it was really interesting, hope you find it helpful:
* Both vitamins C and E play key roles in female and male fertility. A high intake of these vitamins may increase sperm count and increase sperm motility while in women these vitamins can reduce stress on eggs and the reproductive organs.
* Sperm need to be able to swim efficiently in order to reach the egg. Foods that contain antioxidants, vitamin E and selenium will help improve the sperm motility and make them better swimmers.
* Some research shows that if you are trying to conceive, it is wise to avoid sea food as the high level of mercury may be responsible for abnormal semen and decreased fertility.
* Many infertility issues crop up due to hormonal imbalances. This can be avoided by removing all processed flours and sugars such as white bread, pasta, pop, candy, and sugary juices from the diet.
* Eating foods with a low glycemic index such as fruits, vegetables, and beans; lean protein like yoghurt, chicken, tofu, and turkey; and essential fat including walnuts, sesame seeds, and extra virgin oil at every meal helps maintain the hormonal balance in the body and improves the functioning of the reproductive organs.
* Certain herbicides and pesticides sprayed on crops have been found to have drastic effects on fertility. In particular, xenoestrogens, a type of estrogen, found in environmental chemicals and pesticides may disturb the hormonal balance in women and lead to infertility. Choosing organic foods whenever possible will help you to avoid this chemical as well as others.
Just to let you know that myself and DH were ttc for 6 months and in the month before my BFP, DH was taking 'Wellman' vitamins. He hated them but they seemed to do the trick!!!
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Well, cd8, do you ever feel like you are wishing your life away counting down to ov time each month, then counting down to testing time. This year has gone so fast for me because it's one 2ww after another. It doesn't seem 5 minutes since my in-laws were here for christmas (OMG, memories!!!!)
20Jan - Thanks for the wellman info, I am nipping to town later so will get some. Will they have it in Holland & Barretts do you think? DH desperately wants another baby so I think I can convince him to try it...although he can be a big baby when it comes to things like that. I once made him lemon & honey when he had a sore throat and he was wretching when he was drinking it
I've still not properly started my healthy eating, but yesterday I went for a nice walk (yay!!) and ate well all day. I ate bread though and that is one food I want to get rid of from my diet. The rest of the day was good though. Haven't weighed myself, I get obsessed with scales so will only weigh in once a week to keep track of everything!
Decided to have an hour in front of the TV this morning, something I never get to do in the day and put Home & Health on for a bit of baby tv, but there was no baby progs on? When I was having ds (3 years ago) there was always baby programmes on Discovery: Student Midwives, Portland Hospital, Here to Maternity, Baby Whisperer, Baby Room (that was cool!!)...where are they all?
Cool, just been looking on the Home & Health site and seen that you can watch programmes on demand through your pc...how good is that. It costs £3.50 per month. They have a few baby progs listed, but not many just Baby Whisperer, Mum's the Word and Yummy Mummy .... c'mon H&H lets have some more choice.
I officially have too much time on my hands today, well actually I should be working
I have been looking on some different sites and found the most amazing video link.
The film consists of 8 short films, about 5-10 mins long. You can watch them on your pc free. They show so much about what happens before conception through to the third trimester.
The film titles are:
Passing on Your DNA The Egg's Journey The Sperm's Journey The First Two Weeks The Embryo Takes Shape Messages in the Genes Feeding the Growing Fetus The Third Trimester
Ive been reading your posts as we have just started TTC#2 this month. I would be really interested in seeing the vids you have posted but it wont let me play them. Do you need something on your computer to allow them to run?
) and 15 days later I got my bfp! To add insult to injury, a week before getting my bfp I went out on a works night out and shared 6 bottles of wine with my 2 colleagues, 3 bacardi breezers and a pint of cider (yuk!) followed by a motorway service station greasy fry-up! I had no idea I was pg, I just didn't think it was a possibility. The following day my hangover seemed to last all day, and all night and was still there when I woke up the next day. That's when I started to think that maybe I was pg! I went on to have a super healthy pregnancy, and ds was born 2 weeks late at 9lb 8oz. A whopper!
I am hoping that will be the back of her for the next 9 months!
) and now I am eating a peanut butter sandwich for my lunch. I know peanut butter is actually good for you once you get over the high fat content and sugar!!!
) so that's my plan.
, if you know what I mean!!!) and through the 2ww. It's kind of like keeping a diary, I get to write down all the little thoughts that pass through my head. I think it might be quite therapeutic. A couple of months ago I had so much whizzing around my head that I started having really disturbing and violent dreams. So hopefully expressing myself on here will help my head ..... OMG I sound like a nut case!
