Hi Girls,
I am back home and still pregnant.
Thank you all for your best wishes.
I got to the hospital at 7:20pm last night and was told to wait in the day room so a midwife could come and see me. I was getting so nervous and kept getting really upset that DH2B would be leaving me at 9pm. The midwife said that they were struggling to find my notes and that the clinic hadn't sent them through, so they had to go and retrieve them from the other side of the hospital and I explained I was anxious etc. By 8pm they had finally found my notes and she had a read through and then took me to a bed and explained the procedure. She said that I hadb been prescribed Propess instead of prostin by the consultant and I asked the difference between the two and she explained that it was a slow release drug and looked a bit like tampon with a string on the end and had to stay in for 24 hours before I could be examined again! This really put me off as I was originally told I would be having prostin, which I believe works quicker. I got really teary and stressed out that I started having an irritable uterus that my tummy getting jumping. They said if I wasn't sure if I could stay the 48 hours and follow the procedure through then I needed to have a think and make sure that if I was going to do it I would have to stay. It sounds silly but I really didn't want to stay home for 2-3 nights being poked and prodded and wanted to just do it naturally and with DH2B. I asked her to examine to see if I could have a sweep or how suseptable I might be to the drug and after prodding she said that my cervix was still high and closed as it as on Tuesday and would probably take longer to respond to the drug. DH2B said that is was my choice but seemed really disappointed with me and thought I was being perfectic for not wanting to stay although it is not his body that is going through all of this. I made the decision to go home and apologised alot for messing them around and she said she would rather that than me have some drugs and then decided half way through I wanted to go home as it would be dangerous for me and baby. On the way home DH2B was clearly peed off with me although he promised he wouldn't be if I decided to go, he slept on the couch and refused to say much to me at all today so I talked to him this morning and said that it was no good being grumpy with me as it is not going to solve anything and what is done is done, so he is a little better but still not great. He said he can't understand my problem with wanting to stay away.
I know I am just a silly cow but I really couldn't go through with it and just ended up getting into a state.
Now it is just a waiting game. Hopefully my hips and back will be ok for a few more days. I also found out whilst I was there that the pins and needles and joint pain in my hands is carple tunnel syndrome, great!
Lorraine - Grace is having real strops at the moment, screaming hitting,crying and spitting etc but I think it is to do with teething and being frustrated that her routine is all over the place again. We use the naughty step alot and that seems quite effective but she can be relentless with saying "drink, drink, drink, drink" until she gets it but if we say in a minute she screams the house down and we have to put her on the step.
Kia - I'm sorry to hear your birth story wasn't a positive one but really glad I didn't read that before I went as it probably would of made me ten times worse!
Love to you all
Jen x
