I DID IT!

I DID IT!

Oliver Arthur was born (all by himself) at 9.45pm on Tuesday 17th June weighing 7lb 15oz.
As you know, I went in for an induction at 8.30am on Tuesday expecting them to break my waters and see how we got on.
We waited all morning and eventually got seen by an obstetrician at about 11.30. She examined me. I was still 3cm but effaced and 'stretchy'. She did another quick sweep while she was 'down there' and then we were left alone again until a bed became free on labour ward.
I had some lunch at 12.30 and started feeling a bit achey. Then by 1pm I started getting proper contractions. Almost immediatedly they started coming three minutes apart.
I met my designated midwife who said my room would be ready in the next half an hour and who do you think it was!? It was the same midwife who I saw in triage on Sunday who was so supportive and no nonsense about VBAC. I couldn't believe my luck!
By the time the room was eventually ready at 3.45 she examined me and I was 4 cm and in established labour. She broke my waters at 4.15 and we were able to just get on with it.
Even though I was monitored I was helped to move about and do whatever I needed to keep as comfortable as possible.
After two hours the plan was to examine me and see if I'd progressed and if not to give me a small dose to oxitocin. I was still only 5cm at that point and I was gutted!
Karen went off to organise the hormone drip and by the time she came back again things had really kicked up a gear. Contractions were coming more or less on top of each other and I was starting to think that I couldn't cope any more.
By 8.15, thinking I'd still only be about 6cm, I was thinking about asking for drugs. By now I was howling like a constipated opra singer with each contraction because it was the only thing I could do to help with the pain. Karen asked me if I'd felt any pressure in my bottom yet, which I hadn't, but then I got this sudden uncontrolable urge to push. She examined me again and I was 9cm!!
So that point was the hardest of the whole thing. My body was trying to push when I wasn't yet ready. Karen was telling me not to and there was absolutely nothing I could do to stop myself! In the end Karen had me change position and managed to stretch the last tiny bit of cervix out of the way.
Unfortunatelty at 8.45 Karen had to change shifts but I had another lovely midwife who took over my care for the rest of the pushing stage. I had no idea how hard that would be. The uncontrolable urge seemed to go and was replaced by a less painful but also less effective type of contraction. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't seem to push for long enough with each go and I took an hour and a half in total to finally get him out.
Still, despite being the most painful thing I have ever done I can't belive how lucky I was to have it all go so smoothly after all the nightmares I've had with my medical care. I am still on a high because my body did it all by itself even after all the Drs doubting me.
I came home from hospital yesterday lunchtime after a sleepless night on the ward - partly because I was so pumped full of adrenaine and partly because I was kept awake by another resless baby and his poor Mum.
Even though I am completely shattered and a bit achy the recover after this birth isn't even in the same league as the pain I was in after my C-Section. I had a slight tear and stitches but even that is nowhere near as bad as I had imagined it to be.
The best thing of all though has to be the reaction of DS when we bought Oliver home. After all these months of worrying about it, he was so excited to meet him. The first thing he said to DH this morning was 'morning Daddy I see baby Orla (he's not quite mastered the name yet) and Mummy?' BLESS!
Oliver kept me awake most of last night wanting to suckle constantly so I have been a bit zombified today. I can feel my milk coming in now though, so hopefully tonight wont be quite as bad and I can get at least an hour or two's sleep in each stretch.
Anyway. Thank you all so much for all your kind messages and thoughts over the last few weeks. I can't tell you how much you have all helped me through all this.
I'll be popping on as often as I can to catch up with you all and then I hope to be joining you on our new parenting thread when we've all had our bubbas!