I don't even know if what I'm "suffering" right now is called anxiety disorder. I was perfectly health before I started feeling it three days ago. What I'm feeling is really strange and stupid but I just can't control it especially when I'm realizing it. So I feel my heart twitch or pressured and I can't breathe deep and my muscle tense, when I see something negative, anything on TV or walking on the street. Say when I see a girl who is really ugly walking, I feel it. When I watch TV, someone says something as normal as "I had a bad day", I feel it. It is as if I feel I'm lucky than them and somehow I need to suffer for my luckiness? (I don't know.) I think it might have to do with what I've been experiencing lately. Nothing tramatic happened to me lately except I kept working hard at school and exceling in classes. In a advanced math class, I got the best score(of course i worked my butt off for it) and I tried to answer teacher's every question(I'm not showing off, I just think it's a good way to learn in class). I felt other students were whispering something among themselves everytime I answered a question. After that I felt kinda strange to answer question again and my heart raced when I was about to answer the question. (As if I don't deserve my success?)I think this experience somehow had to with the "anxiety disorder" I'm experiencing right now. Besides, lately I studied too hard and was hard on myself too. Also I have a friend who stutters, I don't want to talk with her since I fear I might get "infested" too. You got a big idea what I've been feeling, right? To sum up, when I see people who are unlucky than me in any way, I get this strange feeling. I tried to shift attention from it, but the more I tried, the more the nervous twitching or pressuring at heart hit. Help me!
I have that to ! Im only 14 and i was tramatised as for when my Grandad had died my heart starting to ache and it was hard for me to breathe . My grandad was everything for mehe was there when i needed him and such. But when i told my social worker about it she said im being stupid and over acting about his death ! I have wanted to go to the Local dr's but i have been to scared to ! I have no idea what it is ! But i hope it isn't serious
