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Thanks you two i knew you would understand but i am now blubbing again....i just can't seem to shake this tearful feeling.. it is 2 weeks since i was wheeled down to theatre maybe that is why i am feeling like this. one of the sisters at work rang earlier and i told her i was signed off for another 2 weeks and she was so nice about it that i nearly started crying doewn the phone at her.. still at least she would have known that i wasn't just skiving i guess.
Anyway, thansk for being there as usual what would i do with out you lot.
Claire
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Claire give yourself a break mate, its only been 2 weeks and you had go to through all that waiting and tests and everything beforehand. Give yourself a chance to grieve and pour your heart out whenever you need to, it wont help anyone to bottle it up, especially you.

Thanks Karen.
I think i am afraid if I start I will never stop.
I just find some people so flippant about it like it didn't count. if i hadn't have been nearly crying and hannah wasn't with me i wanted to say it doesn't matter how old i am because my tubes are buggered really and my age isn't going to change that. when i put hannah in the car Dec rang me and i started crying down the phone at him. which i hate doing because i know he worries about me then.
I know it is early days and today is just a bad day tomorrow will be better and Dec will be off as well so that will help.
Thanks for your support i really do appreciate it..
How are things with you today any good plans for the weekend?
Claire
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One day at a time mate, ok.

Not much planned for the weekend, kids started school hols today so gonna have to arrange some things for during the week i think. Luckily they have changed Tims days off so he will be home midweek and we can have a family day or two. Thinking about taking the kids into town at some point, need some clothes for me and at least if i have them with me i wont get the chance to brows too much . or spend too much money!

Hi karen,
That will be nice that Tim will be around for part of the week. You can't beat a bit of retail therapy either. Especially when you are doing so well on WW.
i spent a fortune today on healthy food.. the only good thing about not having been able to drive i wasn't spending any noney either..... i will save some of my money for when i have lost some of this weight though... i fully intend to indulge in retail therapy when the weight starts coming off...
I will try and check in over the weekend but if i don't catch up with you.. have a great weekend and i'll catch up with you next week,
Take care
claire
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Claire,

Just thought I would check in to see how your doing? Looks like you had a rough few days come the end of last week. Hope your feeling a bit better now. Remember it is still early days so dont beat yourself up. I still have bad days and I lost my last one 9 months ago. It can hit you all of a sudden. Keep your chin up mate, we are all here for you.

Take Care,
Karen x

Thanks karen,
i am alright as long as i don't think about it or talk about it... not the best way to deal with it though.

I am on day 2 of WW and so far i am not doing too well. i find it so difficult to control my eating.. i start off really well in the morning and lunchtime but by mid afternoon/evening i just lose the impetus. i am going to persevere with it because i really want to lose some weight. i hate looking at myself in the mirror. my stomach is still really bloated after the surgery.. i read today that it can take up to 6 weeks for it to return to normal so that made me feel a bit better about my jeans feeling so tight but i know that if i could lose some weight i would feel better about myself.
Anyway, i am going to go nd make dinner now, i will catch up with you all later.
claire
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How you doin mate?

Hi karen,
I am doing ok today, yesterday i wasn't so good but it seems to go like that. I was kept quite busy today had a long chat with my sister-in-law who lives in Ireland today and it was nice to have a talk and a moan with her. Then went shopping to Tesco's i feel really tired today though i think i have overdone it a bit this week.
Have not done very well on the diet this week am thinking of doing CD 1000 next week and seeing how i get on. Although i think officially i am not supposed to but it can't be any worse than doing WW and at least i may see some results and be able to stick to it.
How are things going with you?
Claire
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Just popping in to say "Hi" and I hope you are starting to have more good days than bad

Big hugs

Ails xx

Thanks Ails,
i seem to have a good day then a bad day then a good day etc....today seems to be a bad day, which is horrible because dec is off and usually i feel better when he is around, but i am getting the feeling that most people thinki should be moving on now and i can't do it, i am not ready... It doesn't help seeing pregnant women out and about the place, it's got to the point thati look down when i am walking around... i 'll end up walkig into someone then.. probably someone pregnant don't get me wrong Dec is supportive but i just can't seem to talk to him at the moment. It's not helping that physically i am uncomfortable today, seem to be having bad twinges on the left side where the ectopic was, don't know if i am ovulating or what.. but it hurts alot...
anyway, enough of my moans, how is the diet going? and i see you have invested in a treadmill, Dec wants to get one,if you don't mind me asking which one did you get and was it expensive? cos' i was thinking of getting him one for his birthday...
Catch up with you later
Claire
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Claire, move on when you are ready mate, everyone has to move at their own pace and its harder because you have been wanting this for quite a while now, but just try and remember that these things happen to many people so you are most definately not alone, altho i can understand why you feel you are right now. It will get easier, but at the moment your body hasnt even had time to adjust, let alone your mind. Hold onto the good days and just work your way thru the bad ones and on top of that just look at the gorgeous little girl you have. It doesnt help you i know, but some people arent even lucky enough to have that.......i hope that doesnt sound like i am putting down how your feeling now, because you know i would never do that.

Thanks Karen,
And i know you are right, if i didn't have hannah i don't know what i would do, she is the reason i get out of bed everyday. I just feel so sorry for myself today, i know tomorrow will be better, but i feel dark today.
I don't want to keep going on about it either, cos i think people will get fed up of me.... ( i am not including you guys on here in that)
How are things with you today? how is the lovely puppy?
Claire
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Aw Babes, it's gonna be like that. Try to enjoy the good days and get through the bad

The treadmill - Roger Black one from Argooos. 250 quid, buy now pay 6 months time

Hope that helps

Ails xx

The lovely puppy is fine, actually being quite good altho i thought we were in for an emergency vets visit today as Dylan was bringing her downstairs (she can go up but not get down) and she slipped out of his arms and fell halfway down the stairs, luckily i was stood at the bottom and rugby tackled her about halfway, she couldnt walk there for a few minutes and cried when she put her paw down, but now she is running around like a loon again. Kids have been told they arent allowed to pick her up anymore, wasnt his fault it was mine for asking him to bring her down. Anyway she is fine now, just hope she sleeps on the floor again tonight so i can get some more sleep.