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Good Morning All,

Thanks for your advice katie.... I made my decision and didn't drive to my works do and of course drank far too much, surprisingly didn't eat that much but danced loads so got some exercise. Had a really FAB time so not feeling too bad. For the first time in ten years (at least) I felt relatively confident and quite pretty my dress was a SIZE 14...YIPPEE! now i have to admit that some of my confidence came from that good old alcohol stuff but it also came from feeling normal sized and not feeling like i stood out because i was the biggest there.

So i made my choice and now have to face up to to the consequences. I guess that i will gain weight as a result of my falling off the wagon but do you know 'I Ain't Bovverred!!!'
Instead i shall jump back on the wagon and try and undo some of the damage i did by monday when i have my official CDC WI.
Claire
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Am just catching up on my diary. been a bit poor on the posting front because i have really fallen off the wagon and finding it really hard to get back on. this is partly to do with TOTM which is due next week but also, i think to do with my worry about my lap and dye this thursday. Following the diet just doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.
Life seems to be quite hectic at the moment and i realise that this is precisely why i need to stay focussed because life doesn't go away. and when i read other peoples stories on this site i really should put my worries into perspective because compared to some people i have no right to complain.

Anyway the long and short of it is that i have gained 2lbs this week due to my excesses(SP?) which the most weight gain i have had since i started this diet. I was not surprised by this gain and in fact expected it to be more if i am honest.

I am really going to try and do better for the rest of today and then take each day at a time. tomorrow should be ok because i am at work for 13 hours and usually find it hard to fit in a break never mind a chance to eat. Thats the NHS for you.
Anyway, rant over. onwards and downwards (weight wise).
How is every one doing today?
Claire
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hello All.
have been having a very busy week so far and the scary thing is that it's only wednesday. the other scary thing is that there is only 11 days until xmas and as usual i am not ready.... Never mind i'm sure i'm not the only one.

So i have been doing quite well this week food wise i have managed to avoid all carbs and followed 790 quite well.

Tomorrow is ny laparoscopy which i am quite nervous about, all the worst case scenarios keep running through my head including a few mellowdramatic ones. Already it's going to be complicated just getting there. Mother in law coming tonight to stay and take DD to nursery tomorrow. only problem is that she has never taken DD to nursery ( is's a new nursery) and the usual route i take DD is closed off because they are doing building work. Then the alternative easiest route is too steep for MIL who is 70 years old and bound to fall. So we have had to show DD a different route that she has never taken before. If she gets to nursery at all it will be a miracle. We would have just taken DD out of school for the day but it is her Xmas party and we didn't want her to miss it because she is looking forward to it.

Told you it was all complicated. And that's before we drive through rush hour traffic to get to the hospital. That's assuming that they don't cancel the op. We all know what the NHS is like.....

Anyway, roll on friday when it will all be over and i can get on with rushing around trying to finish getting everything ready for Xmas....((((sings)))" Tis' the season to be jolly..."

Sorry for the rant feeling better now...
How's everyone else doing?
Claire
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Will be thinking about you tomorrow, been there and done that.... you might not be rushing around as much as you think on friday though, may have to take it easy for a couple of days it can be a little sore afterwards, but nothing to worry about. Good Luck. Karenxx

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Originally posted by oldmummy:
Will be thinking about you tomorrow, been there and done that.... you might not be rushing around as much as you think on friday though, may have to take it easy for a couple of days it can be a little sore afterwards, but nothing to worry about. Good Luck. Karenxx

Dear karen,
thanks for your kind words. As usual when i am worried about something i come over as being flippant in an attempt to make light of the situation. I have a bumper pack of painkillers. to help me through the next couple of days. And i intend to get as much mileage out of tomorrow as i can... LOL I have already told DP that i am not allowed to cook or clean for 48 hours post op....HEHE. Actually the dr did tell me to take it easy especially cooking due to the General anaesthetic. I think it's in case i leave the cooker on or something. Does this mean i am going to be exhibiting even madder behaviour than usual....HELP!!

It will be very strange being on the other side of the system. and as i am having surgery in the hospital i work in. I have just realised that I will know the porters who take me down to theatre and the theatre staff... I am going to have be very careful of those surgical gowns they can be a bit exposing around the botton area. Still 6 months ago they probably wouldn't have gone around my bottom so already i'm quids in...LOL
Anyway, must dash going to take DD to swimming lessons. When did life get so crazy? Oh yeah i remember when i decided to have kids.... Of course wouldn't change it for the world though.
How are you getting on? Are you sorted for Xmas? You must be getting so excited, not long now until your hubby gets back...
Claire
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hello all,
just catching up on my thread.
So yesterday had my lap and dye and was really shocked to find how painful and sore i was after the procedure. so bad in fact that i had to stay the night in the hospital because i could barely move. You were so right Karen i was in no fit state to hobble around never mind rush around.

Anyway, it seems that i will need further surgery on my fallopian tubes i have adhesions on one side and for some reason the other tube is severed. They couldn't tell me whether it was a congenital defect or if it happened during my c-section 4 years ago. And really it doesn't matter anyway because either way i will need to have this surgery. it was really weird being the patient instead of the nurse but i have to say overall it was a good patient experience.
So it looks like next year i will be having more surgery unless i fall pregnant before then....unlikely really.

So as you can all imagine i have not been concentrating on the diet the last couple of days it just doesn't seem to be high on my list of priorities at the moment.
Any way i am off to take more painkillers and have a lie down.

Catch up with you all soon Hope you're all doing ok
Claire
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Hi Claire, i didnt want to go into too much detail of how painful it could be before you had it done, i didnt want to put you off. I too had to stay in hospital after it as i collapsed when i tried to get out of bed, i did try to warn you but in an easy way. Anyway all over now and you have to take things easy for a few days, you may think you start to feel great but if you do too much you will suffer for it, take my word for it.

I am sorry they found things wrong, but you know yourself what wonderful and magical things they can achieve these days and it certainly doesnt mean the end to your fertility. Hey anytime you want a chat about it, feel free. I am sure i told you before that my twins were ivf, not that i am saying you will need it, but i can fully understand the emotions and stuff that go with fertility probs. Now take care of yourself and i am sure after your surgery things will improve and you will get what you want, one way or another. Send you a big friendly hug. Karenxx

Thanks Karen,
It means alot still feeling quite teary and shaken. And i have to tell people in the family because they are staring to ask questions and i really don't want to talk to them about it because i don't want people to feel sorry for me. Feel like hiding and not talking to anyone for a few days.
Anyway, thanks again am going to spend lots of time with DD who it seems is even more of a little miracle than i already knew she was.
Claire
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You will start to feel better, i know it doesnt seem like it now, its alot to get your head around and it will take time. You dont have to speak or tell anyone about anything until you are ready to do so. I have two total miracles of my own so i know how you feel right now. Take care. Karenxx

Aw Babes

Hope you're feeling better soon. Much hugs xx

Ails xx

Hello All,
Thanks for the kind support Ails and Karen. i am still feeling frail and pathetic. Went to tescos today with DP and DD. Couldn't cope with the crowds and then went for lunch which was nicw but the walk to the restaurant wiped me out. Anyway, took some lovely painkillers and feeling much better now.

My diet is a complete shambles have been eating all the wrong things. And I am constipated 'cos of the painkillers (see Ails i can overshare too!!!)TOTM is due and so i am currently WI at 13.7 WHOOOPS!!! Just can't seem to get focussed at the moment. Am supposed to go to WI on monday but feel like just not going back until the new year. Don't feel like having to explain myself to anyone at the moment. I know what i am doing is wrong but can't help it. OMG i am such a miserable COW.

Tomorrow we are supposed to be going to DP sisters house for lunch because it's DP mothers birthday and don't want to go. Mainly because his sister will want me to talk to her about it. and in the past she hasn't been very supportive despite knowing about my trying to conceive... You know helpful comments like... Don't have any more kids. Stick to just one...That kind of thing. And telling me about every single person she knows who is pregnant, even people i don't know. OMG i sound like such a B***h. I am really not as horrible as i sound...honest. i am just feeling really sorry for myself at the moment and i have no reason to be because i know how lucky i am really and that just makes me feel guilty. Especially when i read some of the threads on here and see what others are going through.

I think i have moaned enough for one day. it's probably all the drugs i have had put into my system in the last 48 hours making me depressed.
I'll be alright tomorrow.
I apologise to anyone who has been unlucky enough to have read this thread but just needed to get some stuff off my chest.

Claire
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Claire i do wish you would stop aplogising for the way you feel, you dont have to on here you know. No doubt there will be others that disagree with me, but if i were you (and i was once) i would not even contemplate dieting until the New Year, you have enough on your plate emotionall and physically at the moment and you do not need anything else to be worrying about. Try not to go crazy, but enjoy Christmas and new year and get back on in January when you are more up to giving it your 100% attention.

As for tomorrow and lunch, cant you say you are still feeling sore, or that your little outing today was too much for you and you really cant go, i am sure OH will back you up wont he, afterall he is going through this too. Or if that wont work then get him to ring his mum and explain that emotions are running high and please ask anyone not to mention your tests etc, at least until you have gotten your own head around the situation.

I really do have every sympathy with you and sod those people that try to give you crap advice and make those stupid comments about you being happy with one and dont need anymore anyway, what the hell do they know, they arent you are they. If you want to damn well feel sorry for yourself until you come to terms with what you have and still have to go through, you just do that. Certainly no one thinks your horrible, just having alot to go through at the moment. Things will get better i promise, life can be a bit*h. Karenxx

Thanks Karen, I can't believe what a lovely, understanding person you are. Am now sitting here crying. It's nice that you understand. Just promise me that when i have wallowed enough in my own self pity that you will give me a kick up the butt. I am sure that i will need one soon. How is things going for you? is everything still on track for your DH coming home? I hope so.
Claire
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Dont you worry claire, i can dish out as many kicks up the bum as you can take. Give yourself time, ok. A good cry and work wonders, but i wasnt trying to make you.

Things are still looking good for him coming home, he should hopefully start travelling from there on Mon/Tue, it takes along time, helicopters from here to there and then waiting for flights out. He is still due to be in the UK Friday evening sometime, but not coming home until Saturday, we didnt want him turning up at night when the kids are asleep, they would have too much of a shock to wake up in the morning and find him here. I am keeping everything crossed. Karenxx

Oh Claire you poor love, of course you're miserable but you're no way a cow. What you're going through is a horrible situation that nobody deserves to have to suffer. As for tomorrow please, please put your foot down and flatly refuse to go, anybody with any consideration for your feelings will totally understand. Its one day out of hundreds and you are not up to it. You havent had enough time to get your own head round the situation without trying to get other people to understand. You stay home tomorrow, cry all day long if thats how you feel, and know that you can come on here at any time for support. Everything Karen says is right (as usual!) You have to be totally selfish now and look after your own mental and physical health. You know we're here for you.

Take care

JaxII