Where to start.......?
I went to my hypnotherapy session last night and it was actually more like a councelling session. He asked me lots of questions which I answered, some of them I had no idea what the answer was! I found it a bit draining and almost cried about 3 times. It was quite an eye opener though! A lot of the questions he asked I'd end up with the answer being the scales when he made me expand on my answers. I didn't realise how hung up on the scales I actually am. He told me I'm a pain/pleasure person......I'll do some dieting and exercise then feel good for a bit before seeing a number I don't like on the scales, get upset then throw the towel in and put myself through mental pain and each time I do this it's like tightening a nut and bolt. But I never actually allow myself to feel joy at what I've achieved. Also when I asked why I wanted to lose weight it came down to what other people think of me due to my bullying I had at school.
The scary thing is he was describing things about my personality and my relationships by reading my body language and listening to what I had to say. He would even repeat things I'd actually said back to me a while later. At least I knew he was listening.
He's going to work on making me accept the way I am and my confidence as well as helping me to lose weight. He also said he can train me so that when I press my index finger and thumb together I want to exercise!
He said he'd work with me only if I threw away my scales, so my hubby is going to put them in the loft where I can't get to them.
My tasks for the next few days before I see him on Tuesday are:
1) Throw away the scales
2) Turn off the tv when I eat
3) Walk up and down the stairs 10 times before I eat my lunch
I've also got to write a diary of the time I get up, go to bed, eat and what I eat and the time I go to sleep.
He's also asked me to think of a food I really couldn't eat if it was put in front of me (no matter how hungry I am). I've thought of roast lamb, cod roe and stilton.
And something I enjoy doing that takes no motivation. My list so far is clothes shopping, reading, watching tv, cuddling my husband. It's really difficult to find things that don't involve food and/or drink!!!!!
I've come out feeling positive and he says there are a lot of things he can do to help me. I'm apparently not the typical type of person he has in so he's got to look through my notes and decide exactly what he's going to do. As I was answering his questions I realised how mixed up I sounded, how fixated on my weight I am and how much other peoples opinions matter to me.
He asked me what my goal size was and I said a size 10. After asking me why it would make me happy and what it would change about me I was completely stumped. He said that it doesn't matter what size I am I will never be happy with myself. That's why he's going to help mne with my body image and confidence (I think).
We'll see how it progresses as the actual hypnotherapy starts. I'm seeing him on Tuesday, then the following week then for one more session but he's not sure how long the gap between the final 2 sessions will be. He also said he'd like to see me for a 30 min session around July to see my progress.
Roll on Tuesday!
Start weight 18st 8 (October 2006)
Start low fat, low cal diet 18 Feb 08, start weight 12st 11.25
10st here I come!
What if I can't go under? I'm not sure exactly what to expect. My main problem is that my reltionship with food isn't good. I can't stop thinking about it and before I had my gastric band I was a diagnosed as a binge eater which is a recognised eating disorder. 
I always though I was just a pig! LOL 
and not having cravings once I was home was a real change for me as normally I pace the kitchen in search of food. I’ll see if these cravings stay at bay before I decide whether I think he’s had any affect. He didn’t talk about cravings (that I remember) but did talk about S and M foods which might be what could have triggered it.
