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Bev, reading your posts always makes me smile!

I just had a banana shake too, it was yum. Its not so bad at my work because I have my own office and I work with my dad (who is currently munching on a pork pie cos he starts CD tomorrow!).

My boyfriend eats like a piggy and he never gains weight. Is there something wrong with them or is there something wrong with us! It really isnt fair.

Enjoy your shake!

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Hey there Hollybear!

Brace yourself - when your Dad starts Cd he'll probably breeze right through it after the first week ... I don't know if it's a phsiological fact but apparently men loss more on these vlcds! ANOTHER thing that's not fair

Okay, I can see which way my mind is going right now, I'll sit here and start wailing about how unfair life is in a minute and the list will get progressively longer, so, I'm really going to have my shake now and I'll stop reading all these threads and go & sit on a bench outside instead (rather than inhale all these food aromas)!

Isn't the banana shake magic when it's freezing cold? I'll catch up with you later - have a great day, sweetie!


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Hey Bev, good to see you're still battling away at it! I did LL from September 06 to February/March this year and lost 5.5 stone with that, having lost a bit by myself before I started. Since coming off the plan I've been fighting the dreaded regain with varied success...my last LL WI put me at 12 stone 2...I've been back up to 12 12 and down to 11 10. Currently I am having 3 LL packs a day and an evening meal of meat, veg and a sensible(ish) puddingy type thing...I've dropped 6 pounds this week, and weighed in at 12 6 this morning! I am trying, albeit unsuccessfully so far, to get down to 11 stone...10.5 even. I panicked a bit when I got to 11 10, and had a full blow out over about 4 weeks...but I won't let that happen again.

Here's to restarts and success!

Vikki.

Hi Vikki,

You're doing great this week as you've lost 6lbs!!! In one week! You've shown that it can be done.... Well done, you!

Yep, I'm still waging the war ... this is my day 1 AGAIN, but so far so good, and I actually feel pretty positive. The proof will be in whether I can resist temptation when I'm making my sons' tea and getting through the weekend! I really think I can do it though, and I'm looking forward to seeing how far I can go in 8 weeks (before my hols)!

You've gotten to target once and you know you can do it again, so hang in there and keep on keeping on.

I'm raising my metaphorical glass to your toast and will add one of my own: Here's to us having the guts and determination to KEEP re-starting, NOT giving up on ourselves, and the weight loss success stories in our futures!!!!

Bev

Here here! x

Hi again,

I just wanted to share a stream of conciousness moment and write for a minute about the adrenaline inducing, headache inducing, shock-horror-giddy-relief moment i had yesterday ... it has nothing directly to do with my diet but anyway....

My 'high' today is probably induced by the fact that I had a terrible nights' sleep last night, my shoulders ached, my head hurt and I kept waking up in 'full flight' mode (the fact I had to get up to wee twice probably didn't help). I'm physically still recovering from my fright, and here's what happened:

When I collected my eight year old from my Mum's yesterday I had a good old gossip with her and sent my son indoors to get the five thousand bits of detrious all little boys seem to accumilate and scatter about if they are still for more than five minutes. I'd just waved to my Mum, hollered 'bye' to my Dad and blew him a kiss and was settling into my car seat when I noticed my Mum waving frantically out of her window to get my attention. I opened the door and stood up to hear her better, and she frantically yelled that my son had just fallen down the steep concrete stairs outside her front door!

Okay, quick side bar here, I used to be a gold medallist in Long Jump, High Jump and the 200m sprint in my first two years of boarding school (It's been so long since I thought about that I can't even vaguely recall what happened to those medals!) - but I honestly never knew my speed was still with me!..... I flew from my car (handbag was in the back seat so remembered, barely, to use the remote locking ... I'm a mother, never said I was stooopid) and actually hazily remember taking those concrete stairs five at a time!!!!! I made it in record time and wasn't even doing my 'heavy-breathing-who-turned-off-all-the-oxygen bit when I burst into my parents' house calling softly for my son (parent tip: you scream hysterically = they cry. Whispering to keep them calm works on boys - young and old! Sexist but funny).

My poor Mother nearly collapsed as she explained that my son wasn't running and didn't even trip, he just missed a step and tumbled headlong down the whole flight of stairs ending at the bottom by slamming his head on the ground.

Don't panic - he was fine. I came in to find my Dad ( a retired consultant paediatrician - how lucky he spent his whole life exceptionally doing a job that came in so handy, eh?) giving my son a head exam and he was fine - just sore, shocked & bruised.

I however didn't fare quite so well ... as we drove home my body, especially my head and shoulders, started throbbing from the spent adrenalin - when I explained why I was in agony, and groaning alarmingly, to my little one (my spiderman reflexes and impersonation of batman in my leap up the stairs), do you know the little ingrate was in hysterics and couldn't stop shrieking with laughter for FIFTEEN minutes!!!!

What? Does my son think I'm that old and out of shape? I huffed, quite self righteously, that 'Mummies can be cool too' - and stiffled the groaning and undignified yelps until he went to bed. I dare not confess to him that my shoulders and head were so tight and painful all night and I can STILL barely move! Right .... the challenge is on - I'll be doing heroic feats at least once a week to keep my hand in ... leap small buildings, sprint everywhere instead of walking, and astound him with my numerous skills and physical prowess ......

... I'll just have a little lie down first.....



Bev

Bev - you should write stories! That was fantastic

Hiya Hollybear!

Forget 'fantastic' - where's my sympathy??? I'm in agony here!

Okay - honestly? I feel a lot better buuuut,
I'm dreading (a) tea time (b) today is my friday - I don't work on fridays, so the end of my working week is always thursdays...... so, the serious battle will be joined from this evening! Wish me luck!!!

Bev xx

Okay ... so last nights' battle went like this:
made tea for my son, read a book, had a lovely long soak in the bath and stupidly, at about 9pm, popped a leftover 'chicken pop-corn thingie' in my mouth, chewed, swallowed, and was absently looking around for more of the same when I remembered it was day one of my diet!!! Yes. I know. You don't need to say a word ... I gave myself a mental slap on the wrist and went to bed fuming at myself.

What? Am I possessed by a food genie? I've been doing this in one form or another for a YEAR now ... If I just grew a bit of willpower I'd be done by now (or at least in a bl**dy size 14!!!) - Uggggghhh!

Okay, rant over. It's 10:30am I've had 2 1/2 litres of water already, I had a choc mint shake for brekkie and I'm seeing my CDC today ... I'm still on track.

I'm fretting a bit about being weighed today ... it's been two days, but when I stuck 100% to my guns and lost 2lbs I was really knocked for six ... i don't think I want to know today what I weigh although if I don't know I don't have a comparison base line to kick start this my finle attempt. Maybe I should buy some Ketostix from somewhere and test that I'm in ketosis in a weeks' time ... instead of being tempted to succomb to (or be ambushed by) the 'food genie' I could put the endless loo breaks to use and pee on a stick instead to reassure myself that I'm in ketosis and eating would only set me back to square one. Hmmm ... good idea... so, does anyone know where you can buy them and how much they are?

If you're out there reading this, you're probably on the same journey and I wish you luck ... despite my ranting I know I can do this, I've seen it work, and I rant so you don't have to if you don't want to. Yep, that made my mad rant seem almost selfless, ha ha

Bev xx

The big question is Bev...do you wear a lycra one piece with contrasting cape in your other role as SUPERMUMMY? Oh my I'm sorry but you made me chuckle ..glad your darling boy is OK though!! How lucky to have an appropriatly trained Grandpa!!? That should be a pre-requisite for Grandparenthood!!!

As for the food Genie...yeah, he lives with all of us....he, ahem, "MADE" me eat a packet of Skips last night!!!!!! I was having a 'my-car-failed-its-flippin-MOT-and-is-going-to-cost-me-a-small-fortune' sulk at the time!!

Vikki.

Hi Bev I have just posted a reply to you on my thread - but I have so enjoyed reading yours !! You write brilliantly and your posts are so entertaining-m made me giggle but very glad your son is ok !!
Hope your weigh in went ok and you lost more this week - it is so frustrating this weight loss thing - not sure I will ever conquer it definately have a problem with food and do so envy most of my friends who are all skinny minnys and seem to eat all the time !! Rob my hubby has lost over 4 stone through his illness - he did not need to loose any at all - so i am now trying to feed him up with high calorie snacks etc ( advised by hosp) - he has hardly gained at all ! I managed to put on over 2 stone again and struggle to loose a llb !!
Still have stuck to SS for 5 days will have a break over weekend - hopefully not put on too much then back to diet Monday !! hope you are having a good eve
Love Gaye x

Hi!!!

Just spent the whole day shopping ... yes, shopping, and no it wasn't the 'comfort and succor to all females' it's cracked up to be, or at least that all the mags say it should be. Okay, I concede that if you're super thin or extraodrinarily fit (or rich) shopping in all the high street stores must be loooooads of fun, but at a lumpy, bumpy size 16 I have a news flash for magazine editors everywhere.... it's a bloody traumatic nightmare. Each piece cunningly designed by people that hate the female shape - why else would perfectly good clothes look so 'me' on the hanger, and look so 'hippopotamus-chic' on my actual person? I devised a strategy to cope (and keep me away from 'hot chocolate therapy'), I bought a couple of cute things for the size I intend to be for my holiday. I WILL not buy loads in the soon to be history size 16s and I damn well refuse to buy in 18s again so I either stick to SS or go on holiday with my ex-hubby 'buck nekid'. Problem solved. ish.

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Hiya Vikki!

To set you straight - the cape is optional but the lycra one piece is in fuschia pink!!! LOL
Saw my brother-in-law today (I'd sent him the message about Josh's fall as an email) ... he thought it was a wind up!!!??? Cheeky sod - he couldn't believe the reports of how fast I could shift my butt when the mood arose ... never fear ... I hobbled and groaned my way all over that shopping centre until he very wisely asked how I was recovering from my 'Mrs Incredible/Wonder Woman/Bionic Woman' inpersonation.

As for the evil 'Food Genie' ... Do watch out - his insidious ass is everywhere. Step away from the skips. Just FYI I've figured out how to deal with his sneaky ass - we STARVE him out! Are you with me?
I know it sounds nuts, but it helps me to almost personify "him", it gives me something tangible to struggle and grit my teeth against when I'm weak - I tell off the greedy, rather 'grabby' 'mini-me' & reinforce all the things I want to change about my lifestyle ... especially seeing food as just fuel from now on. Hence I'm starving the b*st*rd out ...

Managed to ignore him today because (drum roll please) at weigh in yesterday I was ... 15st 5lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woo hoooo!

Eight weeks to a size 14. Can I do it? I don't know but, I fully intend to give it my best shot!

Bev xx

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Hi Gaye,

Thanks for popping in ... it was so lovely and, as silly as it may sound, really inspirational to read through your thread. (voted for you, your family are absolutely lovely).

Hey, wait a minute... I sensed a bit of pessimism in your post. Lady, you've come through harder times than most and you've learnt one of the main lessons of life years ago. Infact I guarantee that you were self taught before your first year on earth was up. I'll explain (as my very astute counsellor explained to me): As a physically healthy baby of the species homo sapiens you learnt to roll over, then you learnt to crawl, but it wasn't enough - everyone else was doing something far more efficient and faster than you were so you probably, like those of us fortunate to physically be able to do so, decided to give walking a try. Your young mind thought "Hey, how hard can it be? All these big folks talk gibberish to me in squeeky voices thinking I'm a poodle that hears at a higher register, so if they can do this walking thing so well and, if I grab for an electrical outlet I've even seen them RUN, I can do this too" ... and you spent minutes, hours, days, months, learning how. You persevered. That's the first lesson we all learnt. You can do this.

As we all say, the weight took time to get on so it'll take time to come back off ... actually, I take that back. I need only look at a roast dinner the wrong way and put on 4lbs ... but losing the same 4lbs can take me a good few WEEKS when my body ready to play traitor..... Yeah, I'm taking that nonsense back.

It must be hard for your Rob too, trying to put the weight on - I've been told it's just as disheartening and frustrating to try to 'bulk up' & 'fill out' as trying to lose the weight is for us. I'd imagine his system needs to learn to step down from 'battle ready' burning everything it has ... and that can take time. Good luck to him too. And well done to you for giving the diet another go ... I guess we'll all just keep going until we 'learn to walk'.

Lots of love & best wishes,
Bev xx

hi Bev - have replied to you on my thread too - you write beautifully and have such a way WITH WORDS - HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF WRITING A BOOK !! Sorry caps lock on again !! I can see another Bridgette Jones Diary coming Up !! Seriously though your words mean a lot so thank you ! Yes we are doing well but it is still hard at times. Robs' cancer consultant in London who we have now known for 6 years - wonderful man- has told me that Rob will not survive as the type of cancer he has is very aggressive and the fact it returned last year means that it will come back. We don't know when so are literally living each day and are determined he will go on and on ! i do worry about him all the time and any pain or niggle he has sets me off in a panic. He is having pain in his jaw at the moment so not sure what this is The Dr thinks it is arthritis but I am not convinced will prob have to investigate further. We had a horrendous time last summer as the Dr failed to diagnose the spinal tumour despite numerous visits and in the end we diagnosed it ourselves through research on the internet by which time Rob had become almost paralysed. Anyway sorry to go on we are fine and today is going to be good ! We are going around to friends this pm for a meal just wish it would stop flipping raining !!
You will get down to a 14 I know you will ! I hate shopping too - most of the high street shops sell their clothes 2 sizes smaller than they are supposed to be which does not help !!
thanks for your support- Love Gaye xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi!

If anyone has contributed to this thread since I was last on I apologise for not replying but for some reason I can't see the end of this page on my PC!!

I'll keep checking back, but there seems to be a technical glitch ....

Hope everyone's having a positive 'food free' day!

Bev xx

Beverley, reading your posts has brightened up my Monday morning! And believe me it needed brightening!
Having a food free day so far.. Unless you count thinking about sausage mash and gravy!!!
Holly x