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Hi guys, well i am doing a complete about turn. Just txt my CDC to go back tomorrow. Have been fighting myself all week as for whether i have made the right decision to come off CD and the answer every time is NO I DIDNT. I started this journey for me and I need to finish it for me. I have the guilts like you wouldnt believe over not being able to afford it, what cost do you put on feeling good, looking good and being healthy, there isnt a cost is there. So back on the wagon as from tomorrow morning, i know it wont be easy as i have read things from so many people who have re-started and found it hard. I want this so much and i will do it FOR ME. So wish me luck. Karenxx

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Karen

Glad to hear you have the made decision to go back, you don't have much to lose so it won't take too long. Are you going to SS to get rid of the weight or will you use this as maintenance to go up the plans, so that by the time you have lost the weight you are ready to eat properly again.

You know how much it took me to go back to CDC, but having put on 7-8lbs in the days I was off CD, then losing about 5lbs in 4 days on 790, I now know this was the right decision for me.

Get rid of the guilt girl, just go do it for you.

Karen,

Good for you hunni.

You will do it as you have so much determination.

I wish you very heartfelt best wishes babes.

GO FOR IT!!

xx

Thanks you two, i know its the right decision for me. I think i will SS again to start with as not worrying about food made it easier for me before. I intend keeping at it until xmas and then have a naughty week, but not too naughty, well prepared to put some back on in that time, but will then continue with SS to get that goal and then i want to follow maintenance to the letter, i dont want to be afraid of eating and so doing the full maintenance thing should sort it out this time, problem was i just went from nothing to obviously too much, hence the guilt. I have never been this obsessed with getting the weight off before and may even lower my target after xmas. So in this for a life change and i know i can do it with the help of all you guys on here. I also think the look on OH's face when he gets back is good motivation, he has never seen a skinny mini me.

OK i will try and rid myself of the guilt, sure it will go after loosing a couple more pounds and being back in total control. Thanks again your stars. Karenxx

Hi Karen

Right there with ya - slimfast is tough isn't it??!! Good on ya for taking control and making the decision to do this for you. Sometimes being a little "selfish" about these things is not actually being selfish in the long run. Your OH and kids get a happier, healthier and more confident you!!! And that can only benefit everyone!!

Gonna give my system a good break - try to maintain loss and then stock up on immodium and sudacrem (sorry - but that's the ugly truth) and try CD for a couple of months in the new year. May have to do 790 - don't know if I can cope with missing the gym and being in bed by 7:30 with my Greys Anatomy DVDS and laptop!!!!! We'll see how I feel. I know I'll get support either way on here and that makes things a hundred times easier!!

The problem I have is that I don't have a set weight in mind, just a set size!!! So I can't calculate my time I need to be on the programme. (The people I've actually confessed my weight to looked shocked and said that they thought I was a good couple of stone lighter than I am.) Yet I still want to be within my healthy BMI for psycological reasons.

Does that make sense?

Ails xx

Hi Karen

You just go for it girl. And dont feel guilty, we women are the worst in the world for doing everything for everyone else and nothing for ourselves. And anyway, think how much better life will be for your family and friends having a happier healthier you around, see you're doing it for them really!

Good luck

JaxII

Thanks Ails and Jax for your support too.

Ails - SF was a total nightmare for me, stuck to it just fine, but the scales were so against me this week, it put me on a real downer, hence the decision to come back. Actually going to be a little naughty tonight before starting tomorrow, i havent eaten anything naught in 7 weeks, so am going to get rid of my craving tonight so i can last to goal weight. Actually a bit like you really, i dont really have a weight in mind, just a size i would like to be, thats why i may move my goal when i get there, the whole point is to feel happy with yourself isnt it. I hope you are able to come back and join us again in the new year, but i realise your health may not allow it, either way, good luck in the rest of your journey..........i know we can do it. Isnt it funny how we feel like we want to tell the guys on here what we are doing, but then worry about reactions, when there is never any need to worry because they couldnt be more supportive.

Jax - You are so right that we tend to do things for others and never worry about what we might want or need. I dont just want to loose the rest of the weight, i need to for my self esteem and confidence. As you say though, in the long run we are doing it for our family too, as they dont have to put up with a fed up and sad person, but one thats bubbly and happy. I know my OH is always behind me in anything i do and he never once complained about my weight, but i am sure he will be much happier with a yummy mummy on his arm than the old mummy i still feel.

Anyway girls, onwards and downwards as they say. Tomorrow is another day and the new me isnt that far away. Thanks again for your support, really means alot. Karenxx

Hiya

Hey, if it gets it out of your system then great!!

PLEASE PLEASE just do this as a one off. I don't mean to sound negative or bossy, but you're sooo close and have done so well and it's easy to lose your focus when you're this close.

Just trying to be angel/devil on your shoulder and give you a gentle nudge - I know you'll make the right choices. I don't want to make you scared of food - just remind you to be aware.

I know I'm not wording this very well (tired after hard day of shopping and purchasing yet another pair of shoes - gorge maryjane pair - poor me, hey?) I just hope you understand what I'm trying to say and don't take offence at my total clumsy "Go YOU!" attempt!!

Right - off to get coffee - that should sort me out!!


Ails x

Ails - Of course i didnt take that the wrong way, and yes a total one off and not going to be too bad, dont think i could even if i wanted to, actually not feeling that hungry so may not even bother, have to see how i feel later when kids are in bed. I didnt think you were being bossy either, we could all do with a devil/angel on our shoulders at times when we feel weak, i dont actually feel weak, i feel really strong at the mo and determined.

Glad you enjoyed your retail therapy, would be nice to do that without two kids tagging along, but perhaps thats a good thing because then i cant go out spending. Will wait until OH gets home and he can have them while i use his credit card.........um, sounds like a plan to me.

Are you a shoe monster? Have to say i probably own about 5 pairs, including trainers, walking boots, normal boots and two pairs with heels, i am more into perfume, can never have enough varieties to choose from. I suppose i tend to buy more stuff for OH and kids than me, perhaps i need to work on that one too.

Thanks for your advice. Karenxx

Yes - my name is Ails.....and I'm a shoe-aholic!!!

Take your number, double it and times by 10. You then get the number at which I stopped counting (oops). But I don't have kiddies so no-one's doing without to fund my habit and I love a bargain - so I buy a lot but don't spend a lot

Hubby's credit card - good idea. And totally justifiable - you're gonna need a whole new wardrobe unless he wants to walk around with a woman in droopy too-big pants!!

Ails xx

Ails - I will use that as my backup arguement when he says i cant have it, but as he has been tea total out there for the whole six months, think if i just ply him with a few beers he will agree to anything.

When do you get the chance to wear all those shoes????????????

Booze and bribery - I like it!!!! But you won't need it - one look at the fab new you and he'll agree to anything!!!!

When do I get to wear them? Everyday is an oportunity!!!! to work, to tescos .... fabulous shoes cheer me up!!!! I was very restrained as I spied some in a mag the other week and Primark have just got them in - could have had 1 pair dogtooth, 1 pair tartan and 1 pair animal print, but showed restraint or everyone would be getting a 10 pence mix-up for chrimble!!!!

Ails xx

Right, ok i did it, kids went to bed and i was naughty.....how naughty will show on the scales tomorrow no doubt, but hey ho its done and dusted now, my craving over the past 7 weeks has been answered and i dont need to do it again. So 5, 6, 7 or whatever time the little ones get me up in the morning, i am back on the CD journey to the end. Feeling very positive now and ready to meet the challenge.

Sorry if i am boring anyone, just writing it for me really, other people seem to use their own threads to help them through the good and bad times, so thought i would give it a try. Karenxx

Have a good day Karen, good luck for the weigh in, I'm sure it won't be too bad.

Thanks Livin - lets hope not, will post results later. Hope you have a good day too. Karenxx