Day 271..
Well yesterday was very stressful... Kieran was in bed with "man" flu and I had a million things to do to sort the evenings gigs. I was pretty good food wise all day but then managed to shoot myself in the foot at work last night... functions with buffets are my downfall.... I'm beggining to recognise a pattern where I want to eat the food just 'cause it's there, available and free... even though I'm not in any way hungry!!! what's that all about? Also I don't like to see stuff going to waste!!!! must be the "clear your plate" syndrome raising its ugly head[}

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I must start to devise strategies to deal with this while I'm working the head stuff out!!!!!
Although Kieran's not well he has stuck 100% to the diet.. he says he doesn't want to stay on it any longer than neccesary and he will be good until he gets to goal!!! I believe him... I wish I was still so strong about it. I feel like I've been on this journey for ever now and am really stumbling around the finishing line. I know I will get there... but I'm beggining to do my own head in with all my ups and downs!!!!! What I really need is a strong few days of focused effort to make me feel more in control again.... I will begin today.. as Sundays are usually a hard dieting day... to prove I can.
Food & Excercise diary for Sat 22/7
4lts water
4pts diet coke
150ml skimmed milk for coffee
4 x CD meal bars
1 x CD tetra + mix a mousse
1 x pot sugar free jelly
20ml(coffee portion) single cream
3 x chicken drumsticks (skin removed)
2 x slices thin packet ham
4 x thin slices of chocolate swiss roll[:0][}

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Mandy xxxx